Sad Days

After a couple of weeks things seemed to be getting better although I was still sore from the stitches I was feeling much better,very sad that I wasn’t producing enough milk to fill my baby and I wanted to exclusively breastfeed, but baby formula had to come to the rescue and help feed my little man. My mom had been staying with me for 2 weeks it was such a great help I thank my mommy for being with me on those rough days. It was finally time for her to go home and get some rest herself.

It was a Saturday and I remember waking up a little sad I didn’t exactly know why I felt that way but I felt like crying sure enough I cried all day and felt very sad. I knew it was my hormones but I couldn’t help but feeling the way I felt. Not being able to exclusively breastfeed, going out like before, seeing my body with all the changes after the baby and no one visiting that day seemed to hit me all at once.

Thank god late that night my mother in law came over, she immediately helped with the baby and bathed him. She told me to rest and that she would take care of him that night. I couldn’t sleep at first I cried thinking she wouldn’t know how to bathe him or how to prepare his formula. Then I thought to myself she had 5 kids of her own and they are all grown and healthy she will do just fine lol. Thanks to my mother in-law I got my much needed rest and days after that just seemed to be getting better.